PLEASE VOTE FOR MY DAUGHTER'S IN THIS CONTEST

EVERYONE I WOULD GREATLY APPRECIATE IT IF YOU WOULD GO TO www.focusbylarry.com and click on his blog and when on the pictures of the kids show up please looke to the right and find the name kylee or kaylor and vote for them!!! Thank you so very much!!!

Everyone Please Pray to Give her the strength to Live!!!

I am so very sorry it has been so long since I wrote my last blog but in the blink of any eye life can pass you by and mine has seemed to do that lately. I am writing today to ask all of you wonderful people that read my blog or just happen to look at it every once in awhile to please pray for my Aunt Mary. She is in Baptist Hopsital battling severe lung diseases and is not ready to leave this wonderful earth. She has so many wonderful things to live for and is trying to fight her hardest to be here. These diseases have slowly came about over the last 10 years and have begun to progress very rapidly over the last 2 years. I do have to say she is in alot of pain and has endured more than most people can imagine. Our huge family has pulled together to be here for her and to give her the love and support that she needs. I am writing this today to all of you because one more prayer said for her is one more hope and determination for her to hopefully overcome this in some way and get to see her son's and their children. I have learned much to recently that life is not the fairy tale I once thought it was as a small child. Too many young adults that I love have passed away without ever being able to live life to it's fullest, so I ask you once again please help our family by praying for Mary Morrow and her family.

I HAVE HAD A WONDERFUL WEEK!!!

I have had a very busy but exciting and very fun week. Last friday my husband and I took our two girls camping with my mother and step-dad. We stayed until monday in their very nice and comfortable camper. I do have to say if they did not have a camper it definitely would have been too hot to go with the girls being so young. I enjoyed some much needed girl time with my husband's cousin heather that stayed a night with us and laid out in the water with me for several hours. I love my new tan that I have been getting these past couple of weeks, I must say a good tan does a body well!!! My husband and a couple of guys went fishing at night each night that we were their and I am assuming he got some much needed alone time, or at least time away from me and the girls. Kylee love's the lake so much that she decided to ask her mimi if she could go back up their so my mom picked her up yesterday afternoon and she will be their all weekend but of course my husband and I want to join her so we will be returning to the lake friday afternoon. Today I went to my cousin's new in-ground swimming pool, I should say it is absolutely amazing!!! Kaylor and I stayed for about 2 1/2 hours and that was enough for her. I was able to do a little more laying out and get some more of a tan. Kaylor swam necked for about 20 minutes and she loved it. I even put a shirt on her afterwards that I bought from the Gap that says "I'd Rather Be Naked" and it was perfect, so I must conclude by saying I have had an absolutely positively wonderful week and I hope it only continues to get better!!!!

PLEASE PRAY FOR MY AUNT!!!

ON THE 4TH OF JULY MY FAMILY AND I WENT TO A PARTY AT A COUSIN'S HOUSE AND MUCH TO OUR SURPRISE MY VERY SWEET AND LOVING AUNT MARY WAS NOT ABLE TO ATTEND, AT THE TIME I DID NOT THINK MUCH ABOUT IT BUT LATER ON I WAS TOLD THAT SHE HAD TO GO TO THE HOSPITAL AND THAT THEY ADMITTED HER. SHE HAS SEVERAL ILLNESSES THAT SHE HAS BEEN BATTLING OVER A LONG PERIOD OF TIME AND HAS JUST RECENTLY BEEN DIAGNOSED WITH SOME CHRONIC LUNG DISORDERS AND THEY HAVE BEGUN TO TAKE A TOLL ON HER. SATURDAY EVENING MY AUNT WAS TRANSPORTED FROM A NORMAL ROOM IN THE BAPTIST HOSPITAL TO A INTENSIVE CARE UNIT. FOR A DAY SHE WAS ON 100% OXYGEN AND WAS BATTLING TO BREATHE. RIGHT NOW SHE IS STILL IN INTENSIVE CARE AND IS ON 50% OXYGEN. TOMORROW AT 11:00a.m. THE DOCTORS ARE GOING TO GO IN AND LOOK AT HER LUNGS AND GET A BETTER IDEA OF WHAT IS GOING ON. SHE DESPERATELY NEEDS LOVE AND SUPPORT AND AT A TIME LIKE THIS SHE NEEDS PRAYER. MY AUNT MARY IS VERY SWEET AND KIND TO ALL THAT HAVE COME TO KNOW HER AND SHE HAS HAD A REALLY ROUGH 2 YEARS OR LONGER. SO PLEASE LET US ALL KEEP HER IN OUR PRAYERS AND HOPE FOR HER THE DOCTOR'S TO FIND WHAT IS GOING ON AND BE ABLE TO FIX IT.

GETTING READY FOR THE HOLIDAY WEEKEND!!

LAST YEAR ON THE 4TH OF JULY KYLEE WAS BARELY 2 YEARS OLD AND IT WAS HER FIRST MEMORABLE EXPERIENCE WITH THE 4TH OF JULY. WE TOOK HER TO A FIREWORK STAND AND BOUGHT LOTS OF PRETTY FIREWORKS FOR HER TO WATCH AND OOH AT. LITTLE DID WE KNOW OUR CHILD DID NOT LIKE THE LITTLE FIREWORKS WE HAD BOUGHT HER LIKE THE SNAKES, SNAPPERS, AND SPARKLERS, INSTEAD SHE LIKED THE BIG "BOOM BOOMS" AS SHE CALLED THEM. SHE WANTED TO WATCH THE LOUD, VERY BEAUTIFUL, AND VERY BIG FIREWORKS THAT YOU SEE AT THE ARKANSAS RIVER. KYLEE ALREADY THIS YEAR HAS BEEN TALKING ABOUT GETTING TO SEE THE BOOM BOOMS AND HOW HER DADDY AND PAWPAW ARE GOING TO BUY LOTS OF BIG ONES AND HAVE A SHOW FOR HER. I DO BELIEVE WITH THE WAY SHE HAS BOTH OF THEM WRAPPED AROUND HER FINGER, SHE CAN GET THEM TO SPENDS LOTS OF MONEY ON THE FIREWORKS AND HAVE A SHOW. I HAVE BEEN WORKING ON MY 4TH OF JULY TAN OR SHALL I SAY TRYING TO GET A TAN BEFORE THE 4TH OF JULY AND HOPEFULLY I WILL BE DARK ENOUGH NOT TO GLOW BY THE WATER OF MY COUSIN'S NEW INGROUND POOL AT HER HOUSE THAT WE WILL BE AT FOR OUR 4TH OF JULY PARTY!!! DON'T WORRY FAMILY AND FRIENDS, I WILL HAVE LOTS OF PICTURES TO SHOW YOU OF THE FUN AND I HOPE ALL OF YOU HAVE A WONDERFUL HOLIDAY AND THAT IT BE TRULY BLESSED!!!

SALES SALES SALES, EVERYWHERE!!!

MY HUSBAND IS PLAYING GOLF TODAY IN A GOLF TOURNAMENT TO BENEFIT BAPTIST CHURCH'S, SO SINCE HE HAS BEEN GONE TODAY I DECIDED TO GO SHOPPING. I WENT TO OLD NAVY AND MUCH TO MY SURPRISE THEY ARE HAVING A HUGE 50% OFF SALE AND HAVE ALL OF THEIR BATHING SUITS, SHORTS, TANK TOPS, AND SOME SHIRTS FOR 5 DOLLARS AND BECAUSE THAT IS SUCH AN AWESOME DEAL I FELT LIKE I COULD DO SOME SPENDING. I BOUGHT THE GIRLS SEVERAL BATHING SUITS, MY HUSBAND A FEW PAIRS OF SWIMMING TRUNKS AND MYSELF SOME TANK TOPS AND SHIRTS. THE GIRLS AND I MET MY MOTHER AND GRANDMOTHER AT MIMI'S CAFE AND ATE A WONDERFUL LUNCH. WHEN WE WERE EATING KAYLOR BEGAN TO GET REALLY CRANKY (I AM SURE SHE IS FUSSY TODAY BECAUSE SHE GOT HER 6 MONTH SHOTS YESTERDAY) AND I DECIDED TO LEAVE. KYLEE STAYED WITH MY MOTHER AND IS ATTENDING OUR NEPHEWS BIRTHDAY PARTY WITHOUT ME. OH YEAH I BOUGHT HIM SOME REALLY CUTE OUTFITS FROM OLD NAVY TOO. I WISH I COULD HAVE WENT TO HIS PARTY AND I FEEL VERY BADLY THAT I COULD NOT BUT I KNOW BEING AT HOME RIGHT NOW LETTING KAYLOR TAKE A MUCH NEEDED NAP IS WHAT IS BEST FOR HER!!!!

WE ARE TRULY BLESSED!!!

TODAY, I RECIEVED A PHONE CALL FROM MY HUSBAND AROUND 1:00p.m. AND BEFORE ANSWERING IT I WONDERED TO MYSELF "WHY IS HE CALLING" (I HAVE COME TO REALIZE MY HUSBAND IS VERY BUSY AT WORK AND HE CAN NOT CALL ME UNLESS IT IS VERY IMPORTANT) AND WHEN I ANSWERED THE FIRST THING MY HUSBAND SAID IS "GOD IS TRULY WATCHING OVER US" AND I IMMEDIATELY RESPONDED BY SAYING "WHY DO YOU SAY THAT" AND HE SAID YOU KNOW HOW WE SPENT ALL THAT MONEY LAST NIGHT BUYING OUT OF OUR ALLTEL/VERIZON CONTRACT AND SWITCHING TO ATT&T AND PURCHASING US BOTH IPHONE'S" I SAID "YES I KNOW HOW MUCH WE SPENT" AND HE SAID" WELL MY SUPERVISOR COME OUT TO MY JOB TODAY AND HAD ME A $500.00 BONUS FOR A JOB A DID SEVERAL MONTHS BACK AND WE COULD NOT HAVE USED THIS MONEY AT A BETTER TIME AND HE SAID I KNOW GOD HAS BEEN WITH US" AND I RESPONDED BY SAYING"YES I KNOW HE IS WITH US BECAUSE WE HAVE BEGUN TO LIVE OUR LIVE'S FOR HIM AND WE OUR ON THE PATH THAT HE WANTS US TO TRAVEL ON". I AM TELLING YOU THIS STORY BECAUSE EVERY SO MANY DAYS IT HITS ME ABOUT HOW TRULY BLESSED I AM AND HOW AWESOME OUR GOD IS!!! 4 MONTHS AGO MY BABY WAS SERIOUSLY ILL, I HAD TO QUIT MY JOB AND LOSE A BIG HOUSE HOLD INCOME, MY HEALTH WAS NOT GREAT, AND MY HUSBAND WAS FACING A POSSIBLE LAY OFF, IF YOU HAD ASKED ME 4 MONTHS AGO WHERE I WOULD BE TODAY I WOULD HAVE SAID "I DON'T KNOW, BUT NOW THAT MY HUSBAND AND I HAVE DEVOTED OURSELVES AND OUR FAMILY TO GOD WE HAVE BEEN MORE BLESSED THEN EVER BEFORE. MY BABY IS HEALTHY AND HAPPY, I STAY AT HOME WITH MY GIRLS AND LOVE EVERY MINUTE OF MY TIME WITH THEM, MY HUSBAND IS MAKING MORE MONEY THEN WE MADE COMBINED OVER 4 MONTHS AGO, WE HAVE NOT STRUGGLED ARE WANTED FOR ANYTHING AND MY HUSBAND HAS MADE IT THROUGH HIS COMPANY'S LAYOFF'S. WHEN I THINK OF WHAT ALL GOD HAS DONE FOR US I BECOME SPEECHLESS AND KNOW THAT MIRACLES DO HAPPEN. ALL THINGS ARE POSSIBLE WITH OUR AMAZING GOD!!!

A DAY FULL OF THINGS TO DO!!!

Since Kylee is still and the lake with my mom and step-dad and will not be back until later tonight, Kaylor and I are going to run some much needed errands around town, we are going to go to a store in Bryant Arkansas called Giggles and Wiggles, I have been trying to go to this store for weeks and everytime I go they are closed. After that we are going to hit the dollar tree to see if they have anything we may need for the house. After the dollar tree we are going to complete our day with grocery shopping at Kroger. Oh yeah and I also have to get my medicines filled. I hope today will go alot easier then I am imagining it to go, at least I already know what to expect with a six month old. She is already fussy and is yelling at me right now, so I am making this post short and sweet.

WISH US LUCK!!!

OUR MINI VACATION TO THE LAKE!!!

This is the really cute bib I bought will Kaylor's first initial!!!These are the shoes I bought for Kaylor, they have satin lace bows on them!!!

This is the bag I bought for Kaylor for when she gets a little older, The P is for the first letter in our last name!!!

OH MY GOODNESS, I wish someone would have told me how hard it was going to be trying to take a 3 year old and a six month old to the lake!!! Me, Kylee, and Kaylor, left monday morning and went to a lake in Hot Springs Arkansas where my mother and brother were waiting for us. We planned this trip in advance and we were all excited to spend quality family time together but little did we know 3 kids and 4 adults in a camper with two of the kids being 6 months old would not be as pleasant as what we had imagined.

OH AND DON'T LET ME FORGET TO MENTION THAT I FORGOT TO TAKE ONE OF THE THREE DIGITAL CAMERA'S WE HAVE, SO I DID NOT GET ANY ADORABLE PICTURES OF THIS MINI VACATION.

The First Day was great, me and the girls played in the water for a long time and then we ate and took several naps throughout the day but when the night came all the greatness turned to disaster. My brother's baby Landon screamed in pain for what seemed like forever and every time her cried my baby Kaylor thought she had to wake up and get ready to play. My brother and his wife rushed Landon to the hospital in Hot Springs and discovered Landon had an ear infection. After getting him his medicine they came to the camp and got all there stuff and went home.

The Second day started out great as well, we made breakfast and went into town and bought some supplies we needed from the local Walmart and I shopped at the cutest boutique for kids called Doodles for children boutique (the pictures of the cute things I bought are posted above). After shopping we got some food at the local On the Border mexican restuarant and took it back to the camp site and ate. Later on in the evening my wonderful husband surprised me and the girls and showed up at the campsite (after working all day) and spent some great quality time with the girls and I. He also took me fishing on the boat for awhile. We caught two fish each and got a little sun burn. After my hubby left we started to settle for bed until I began to feel sick and really get the feeling that I was ready to come home, but unfortunately it was too late so I had to make myself sleep and wait till the morning to leave.

The Third day was very short and sweet. I ate breakfast with everyone got all my bags packed and loaded up the car, then loaded up the girls and halled tale back home to my much missed, not as stressful as the lake, wonderful house. I am very glad we went to the lake because Kylee really enjoyed herself but Kaylor is still to young to have fun at place's like the lake and I get way to stressed out to go too often.

KAYLOR GEM IS 6 MONTHS OLD!!!

I LOVE SAYING KAYLOR'S FIRST AND MIDDLE NAME TOGETHER. I THINK I LOVE DOING THIS SO MUCH BECAUSE I KNOW HER FIRST NAME IS VERY UNIQUE AND HER MIDDLE NAME IS SO SPECIAL BECAUSE SHE IS NAMED AFTER HER UMPA (MY DAD) THAT PASSED AWAY BEFORE EVER GETTING TO MEET HER. HOW BIG HIS SMILE MUST BE IN HEAVEN THOUGH, KNOWING HE HAS A GRANDCHILD NAMED AFTER HIM.

KAYLOR GEM

• KAYLOR TURNED 6 MONTHS ON JUNE 8TH 2009.


• SHE WEARS A SIZE 3-6 MONTHS AND SOME 6-9 MONTHS


• HER SHOE SIZE IS A SIZE 1 (YES HER FEET ARE SMALL).


• KAYLOR WEIGH'S APPROXIMATELY 16 POUNDS.


• SHE LOVE'S AND ALWAYS WANTS HER PACIFIER. (SHE HAS A DIFFERENT ONE FOR EVERY OUTFIT).


• HER EYES ARE STILL THE PRETTIEST BLUE (OCEAN BLUE)


• HER HAIR HAS BEGUN TO THICKEN ON TOP.


• SHE HATES LOUD, NOISY PLACES.


• SHE ROLLS OVER, AND IS TRYING TO SCOOT (A LITTLE).


• KAYLOR LOVES TO PLAY PATTI CAKE.


• KAYLOR GEM STILL SLEEPS IN HER PLAY IN PACK RIGHT BESIDE MOMMY AND DADDY'S BED (I AM NOT READY TO LET HER GO INTO HER ROOM YET).


• SHE ABSOLUTELY ADORES HER BIG SISTER KYLEE GRACE.


• KAYLOR IS A MOMMY AND DADDY'S GIRL AND WILL NOT LET ANY ONE ELSE HOLD HER (HOPE THAT CHANGES SOON).


• KAYLOR GEM IS A VERY HAPPY BABY.

JUNE 16TH 2006 WAS THE DAY MY FIRST ANGEL WAS BORN!!!

I CANNOT BELIEVE MY BEAUTIFUL, SWEET, LOVING, AND VERY OUTGOING DAUGHTER IS 3 YEARS OLD TODAY.

WOW TIME HAS FLOWN BY SO VERY FAST.

I REMEMBER THE DAYS WHEN YOU WOULD FIT IN ONE ARM, THIS IS BECAUSE YOU WERE 4 WEEKS PREMATURE AND YOUR WEIGHT WAS 5 POUNDS 11 OUNCES AND YOU WERE ONLY 18 1/2 INCHES LONG. NOW YOUR WEIGHT IS APPROXIMATELY 26 POUNDS AND YOU ARE 2 FEET 6 INCHES TALL.

I HAVE LOVED EVERY ADVENTURE YOU HAVE TAKEN ME ON IN YOUR SHORT LIFE, EVEN THOUGH SOME OF THEM HAVE BEEN VERY SCARY (ESPECIALLY THE HOSPITAL STAY AT CHILDREN'S HOSPITAL WHEN WE THOUGHT YOU HAD A SMALL SEIZURE, THANK GOD IT WAS NOT ONE AND WE FOUND OUT YOU WERE SUFFERING FROM A KIDNEY INFECTION FROM YOUR KIDNEY REFLUX) BUT ALL OF THEM WILL NEVER BE FORGOTTEN.

YOU AND YOUR SISTER ARE THE REASON I WAKE EACH MORNING AND THRIVE TO BE SUCCESSFUL IN EVERY WAY SO THE BOTH OF YOU CAN HAVE AS WONDERFUL LIVE'S AS POSSIBLE

I DO WISH THERE WAS A WAY TO HAVE YOU NEVER SUFFER FROM ANY PAIN IN YOUR LIFETIME BUT THAT IS AN IMPOSSIBLE WISH, BUT I DO WANT YOU TO KNOW THAT I (AS YOU MOTHER AND FRIEND) WILL ALWAYS BE HERE FOR YOU, EVEN WHEN IT IS THE WORST POSSIBLE THING YOU COULD EVER DO, I WILL ALWAYS LOVE YOU AND HELP YOU NO MATTER WHAT.

THERE IS NO GREATER LOVE THAN THAT OF A MOTHER AND CHILD AND KYLEE GRACE PEMBERTON YOU ARE MY GREATEST LOVE AND I WILL TRY IN EVERY WAY FOR THE REST OF MY LIFE TO SHOW YOU THAT!!!


HAPPY 3RD BIRTHDAY, MY SWEET SWEET ANGEL!!!

KYLEE GRACE'S 3RD BIRTHDAY PARTY!!!

KYLEE HAD HER BIRTHDAY PARTY ON SUNDAY JUNE 14TH AT 3:00p.m. AT JUMP ZONE IN MAUMELLE. MY HUSBAND AND I ARRIVED AN HOUR BEFORE THE PARTY STARTED AND SET THE ROOM UP. WE DECORATED KYLEE'S PARTY ROOM WITH BARBIE DECORATIONS. WE ALSO SET UP HER CAKE AND ALL THE OTHER GOODIES THAT WENT WITH IT. THE BALLOONS WE ORDERED FROM JUMP ZONE THAT WERE PINK AND PURPLE MATCHED THE THEME WONDERFULLY. KYLEE WAS SO EXCITED TO JUMP ON ALL OF THE JUMPERS. I DID ONE OF THEM WITH HER AND AFTERWARDS REALIZED I NEED TO GET BACK IN SHAPE AGAIN. KYLEE HAD SO MANY FRIENDS AND FAMILY COME TO HER SPECTACULAR 3RD BIRTHDAY PARTY. WHEN IT CAME TIME TO EAT CAKE EVERYONE WAS DEFINITELY READY TO TRY THE AWESOME BARBIE CAKE WE HAD MADE AT CAKERY AFFAIRS IN BRYANT. THE BOTTOM OF THE CAKE WAS 12" INCH ROUND AND WAS VANILLA AND GERMAN CHOCOLATE. THE BARBIE CAKE THAT WAS ON TOP OF THE 12" INCH ROUND CAKE WAS STRAWBERRY CAKE (WITH FRESH STRAWBERRIES) EVERYONE SAID THE CAKE WAS DELICIOUS. KYLEE WAS TREATED TO HER VERY OWN MINATURE CAKE THAT WAS GERMAN CHOCOLATE (HER FAVORITE) AND SHE ATE LOTS OF IT AND EVEN HAD A PIECE OF THE BIG CAKE TOO. AFTER CAKE IT WAS TIME FOR PRESENTS (I COULD NOT BELIEVE SHE GOT SO MANY) AND IT SEEMED LIKE FOREVER FOR HER TO OPEN ALL OF THEM, BUT SHE LOVED EACH PRESENT VERY MUCH AND WE ARE SO THANKFUL TO EVERYONE WHO CAME TO HER WONDERFUL 3RD BIRTHDAY PARTY. THANK YOU ALL SO VERY MUCH!!!

MY BABY KYLEE IS TURNING 3!!

It seems like it was yesterday when I was a newlywed (of only 2 months) and I was in the bathroom of my apartment with my husband standing at the door saying "what does it say?" "Are we pregnant?" and me eventually being able to say "Oh my, we are pregnant". Just weeks before finding out that we were pregnant one of my cousin's said "so are you going to be like me and get pregnant really quickly after getting married?" and kyle and I responded by saying "NO we are definitely going to wait a few years and then have children" but little did we know our precious baby Kylee had already been concieved. From the very moment I knew I was pregnant, MY LIFE CHANGED FOREVER. I began to eat all the right things, sleep all the right ways, drink all the nurturing drinks and truly become a mature women. I remember crying because none of my jeans fit and because I thought my husband thought I was fat and unattractive. My mom even rushed me to a maternity store and bought me knew pants and told me I would be able to fit into my old one's soon after having the baby (that was definitely a lie). Kylee Grace Pemberton (ONE OF THE TWO GREATEST LOVE'S OF MY LIFE) was born on JUNE 16TH, 2006. SHE WAS TRULY HER DADDY'S FATHER'S DAY PRESENT THAT YEAR. She came by c-section at 11:51p.m. and I remember the doctor saying he had never seen so many family members in a waiting room before. What can I say, everyone was anticipating her arrival. She has truly been my SWEET ANGEL from the very beginning and because her birthday party is this weekend I would like to share with you a letter I wrote to Kylee for her 3rd birthday.

KYLEE GRACE

I HAVE BEEN SO FORTUNATE TO HAVE BEEN BLESSED WITH SUCH A LOVING, CARING, BEAUTIFUL AND VERY STRONG WILLED DAUGHTER. KNOWING THAT YOU ONCE GREW IN MY TUMMY AND MATURED IN IT FOR 9 MONTHS IS THE MOST AMAZING MEMORIES AS A MOTHER THAT I COULD EVER HAVE. MY LIFE BEGAN TO HAVE A PURPOSE THE DAY I FIRST HELD YOU IN MY ARMS. FROM THAT VERY MOMENT ON I KNEW I WAS MEANT TO BE YOUR MOTHER AND I WANTED NOTHING MORE THAN TO HOLD AND LOVE YOU FOR THE REST OF MY LIFE. THROUGHOUT THESE LAST 3 YEARS WE HAVE SHARED A WONDERFUL BOND AS MOTHER AND DAUGHTER, IT HAS BEEN ONE THAT I COULD HAVE NEVER IMAGINED. I LOVE YOUR LAUGHTER, YOUR SMILE, YOUR BEAUTIFUL LONG CURLY LOCKS OF HAIR, YOUR BIG GREEN EYES, YOUR PRETTY TEETH, YOUR TALKING HABITS AND YOUR OUT GOING WITTY PERSONALITY. I ALSO LOVE TO HEAR PEOPLE SAY YOU LOOK JUST LIKE ME WHEN I WAS LITTLE. I LOVE BEING YOUR MOMMY AND GETTING TO HAVE THESE PRECIOUS MEMORIES OF YOUR LIFE AS YOU GROW UP. I CANNOT BELIEVE THAT YOU ARE TURNING 3, EVEN THOUGH YOU ACT LIKE YOUR 18 ALREADY. I HAVE NEVER SEEN ANOTHER 3 YEAR OLD WITH AS MANY PURSES AS YOU HAVE AND I HAVE NEVER SEEN ONE THAT CAN WALK IN HIGH HEELS AS WELL AS YOU DO. I JUST WANT YOU TO KNOW THAT I LOVE BEING YOUR MOTHER, AND I LIVE TO GIVE YOU A WONDERFUL LIFE AND FUFILL IT WITH ENDLESS POSSIBILITIES. THERE IS NOTHING I WOULD NOT DO FOR YOU AND MY LOVE FOR YOU IS THE GREATEST IMAGINABLE.

I LOVE YOU (AS YOU AND I ALWAYS SAY) TO THE MOON AND BACK, FOREVER & EVER.

TODAY IS MY BIRTHDAY!!!

I am 23 today, and this has been a very amazing birthday. My day started off with my husband wishing me a happy birthday before he went to work and telling me how much he loves me. Later in the day I got dressed up (I put a pair of my new jeans on, straightened my hair, did my make-up and put the girls in matching outfits that were too cute) and we went to my mother's. When we got there she surprised me with beautiful cards and cupcakes. She even gave me some money to buy myself something nice(I pot a new pair of seven jeans from indigo with it)and took me and the girls to lunch at chips barbeque. Later in the afternoon when kyle got off work he surprised me with a beautiful card and took me to get pedicure(which felt so good)and of course I got Kylee's toes and fingernails painted too for her birthday that is next week. Kyle also took me to eat at El Chico mexican restuarant(I love mexican food)and we enjoyed a really great dinner. El Chico was one of my dad's favorite restuarants and since he isn't here to share my birthday with me, I decided to eat at a place that reminded me of the wonderful times I had with him. To top my birthday off Kylee sang to me the most beautiful version (created by her) of happy birthday tht I have ever heard. This day was the best, and I cannot thank my family enough for their love and caring efforts to make my birthday as wonderful as it has been. 23 has started off being amazing, I hope that the rest of my year continue's to go this way!!! HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME!!!

OUR WEEKEND!!!

My husband and I got to spend a little time together friday night, we only had our six month old Kaylor because our 3 year old Kylee was at the Beebe races watching her pawpaw try to win, unfortunately he did not win, he got 2nd place instead. Kylee loves to watch her pawpaw race and love's him so very much. I am very fortunate to have such a wonderful step-dad that treats my children as his own grandchildren. I worried when my dad passed away that my kids would miss out on a pawpaw but my step-dad has pushed all those worries aside and has been a wonderful grandparent to my children. Now back to the weekend, Friday night was great me, kyle and kaylor ate at Chili's and then went and looked at some tahoe's (still hoping I get one for my birthday) and then we came back to the house and enjoyed a quit evening. Saturday morning we got up and picked Kylee up from her grandparents and then recieved a phone call from Kyle's mother that she was was bringing our niece (JoJo) to stay the night. Once JoJo arrived we went to Chucke Cheese and ate and played a while, then we came home and watched movies and the girls destroyed my house from the front to the very back. I made them maraconi and hot dogs for supper and they played for what seemed like forever in Kylee's room and then they finally went to bed. Today we got up extremely early and the girls began to play and I gave them a bath and got everyone ready for church. We went to church and really enjoyed the service and now we are back at home. I really feel like I could pull my hair out because JoJo and Kylee together are into everything and the don't ever stop. Hope everyone else's weekend went well and that everyone was able to squeeze in some family time because in the end that is what is most important!!!

BIRTHDAY COUNT DOWN!!

I am so excited that my birthday is approaching so quickly this year, the only down side to it is my father will not be here to call me really early in the morning and sing me Happy Birthday the way that he always did. My Birthday is 3 days away and Kylee's birthday party is only 8 days aways. I told my husband that i want a cookie cake to eat for my Birthday since we are going to have such a big cake for Kylee's just a few days later. I also told him that I want a new car for my Birthday, I don't know for sure if that will be possible but we have gone looking at some SUV's and so far I found a black tahoe that I like alot. But regardless of what I get I will be happy to share another birthday with my family as a proud wife and mother.

JUNE BIRTHDAYS!!!!!!!

AS YOU KNOW IF YOU HAVE READ MY BLOGS HERE LATELY MY DAUGHTER KYLEE'S THIRD BIRTHDAY IS A LITTLE OVER TWO WEEKS AWAY AND I AM GETTING SO EXCITED AND OVERWHELMED AT THE SAME TIME, BUT WHAT I MAY HAVE FORGOTTEN TO MENTION IS THAT MY BIRTHDAY IS NEXT TUESDAY, ON JUNE 9TH I WILL BE 23 YEARS OLD. I KNOW, IT MAY SEEM STRANGE THAT I HAVE BEEN TALKING ABOUT MY DAUGHTERS BIRTHDAY FOR MONTHS AND HAVE NOT SAID ANYTHING ABOUT MINE BUT WHEN I HAD KYLEE I KNEW THAT IT WASN'T ABOUT ME ANYMORE (DON'T GET ME WRONG I SILL EXPECT A GIFT FROM MY HUSBAND AND A LITTLE BIT OF BIRTHDAY WISHES) IT HAS BECOME ALL ABOUT KYLEE AND OUR NEW BABY KAYLOR. CHILDREN NEVER FORGET THEIR BIRTHDAYS AND IF THEY ARE TOO YOUNG TO REMEMBER THEN YOU REMIND THEM, I WANT MY GIRLS TO KNOW THAT I TRIED HARD TO GIVE THEM THE BEST OF EVERYTHING INCLUDING LOVING THEM THE MOST EVERDAY. SO BACK TO KYLEE'S BIRTHDAY. THE INVATIONS ARE OUT, THE CAKE IS COMPLETELY PAID FOR THE PARTY IS COMPLETELY PAID FOR AND THE DECORATIONS ARE FINISHED NOW ALL I HAVE LEFT IS HER GIFT. MY HUSBAND AND I TOOK KYLEE TOYSRUS LAST NIGHT TO LOOK AT SOME THINGS WITH HER AND GO FIGURE MY DAUGHTER PICKS OUT THE NEW BARBIE ESHALADE (SHE MEANS ESCALADE) WHICH HAPPENS TO BE $379.00. SHE SAYS THE NAME SO CUTE THAT IT MAKES YOU WANT TO BUY IT FOR HER BUT THEN I THINK WOW THAT IS REALLY EXPENSIVE ESPECIALLY FOR A BIRTHDAY PRESENT, I DON'T EVER REMEMBER GETTING GIFTS LIKE THAT. I DON'T KNOW WHAT WE ARE GOING TO GET HER, ONLY TIME WILL TELL, STAY TUNED AND YOU WILL FIND OUT SOON IF WE GET THE ESHALADE OR NOT.......

IF I HAD KNOWN

EVERYONE SHOULD TRY USING THIS PHRASE AND SEE WHAT YOU WOULD HAVE DONE DIFFERENTLY, LET ME KNOW WHAT YOU THINK!!!

TWO DAYS AGO I HEARD ON A LOCAL RADIO STATION IN (LITTLE ROCK ARKANSAS) A WOMEN TALKING ABOUT HER LIFE AND HOW IF SHE HAD KNOWN THINGS WOULD BE THE WAY THEY ARE RIGHT NOW IN HER LIFE SHE WOULD HAVE DONE ALOT DIFFERENTLY. AFTER HEARING HER SAY SOME THINGS THE PHRASE "IF I HAD KNOWN" WOULD NOT LEAVE MY HEAD, I EVEN HAVE GONE TO BED EACH NIGHT THINKING ABOUT IT. AS YOU CAN TELL IF YOU HAVE READ ANY OF MY BLOGS I HAVE HAD A REALLY ROUGH TWO YEARS BEGINNING WITH THE DEATH OF MY FATHER. SO WITH ME THINKING SO MUCH ABOUT THAT PHRASE IT INSPIRED ME TO WRITE DOWN WHAT I WOULD HAVE DOWN DIFFERENTLY, SO STARTING FROM THE VERY BEGINNING OF MY REGRET IN MY LIFE I AM GOING TO TELL YOU WHAT I WOULD HAVE CHANGED "IF I HAD KNOWN"

IF I HAD KNOWN

IF I HAD KNOWN AT THE VERY YOUNG AGE OF 18 THAT I WOULD GET DRUNK AT A SHORTY SMALLS RESTUARANT WITH A GROUP OF PEOPLE I HAD NO BUSINESS HANGING OUT WITH AND ALLOW ONE OF THOSE DRUNK PEOPLE TO DRIVE ME HOME IN MY CAR AND ON OUR WAY SIDE SWIPE A HUMMER LEADING INTO A YARD AND 10 FEET AWAY FROM A FAMILY'S DOOR AND THE CRASH ITSELF CAUSING ME 2 WEEKS OF A HOSPITAL STAY AND ACHES AND PAIN THAT WILL NEVER GO AWAY, I WOULD HAVE MADE A SMARTER DECISION AND NOT ONLY THINK FOR MYSELF BUT I WOULD HAVE THOUGHT TO CALL A CAP OR EVEN MY MOTHER TO COME GET ME AND STAY OF THE ROAD TO KEEP EVERYONE ELSE ON IT SAFE TOO. IF I HAD KNOWN THAT MY HUSBAND TODAY WOULD END UP BEING MY NIGHT AND SHINING ARMOR THE WAY THAT HE WAS AFTER MY ACCIDENT AT 18, I CAN NOT EXPLAIN ENOUGH ABOUT HOW GREAT OF A GUY HE WAS TO ME, HE CAME TO THE HOSPITAL DAILY, HE PRAYED FOR ME, HE HAD OTHERS PRAY FOR ME, HE KISSED ME EVEN WHEN SOME OF MY TEETH WERE CRACKED AND BREAKING FROM THE WRECK AND ONE OF THEM WAS COMPLETELY MISSING, HE TOLD ME I WAS BEAUTIFUL EVEN THOUGH I HAD CUTS ON MY FACE THAT WERE NOT HEALED AND WAS WALKING ON CRUTCHES WITH A LIMP FROM A BROKEN PELVIS, SO IF I HAD KNOWN HE WOULD BE THAT GREAT GUY AND I WOULD MARRY HIM I WOULD NOT HAVE DUMPED HIM BEFORE MY ACCIDENT AND I WOULD HAVE NOT IGNORED HIS PHONE CALLS AND I WOULD HAVE GIVEN HIM THE CHANCE HE DESERVED THE FIRST TIME AROUND. IF I HAD KNOWN THAT MY DAD AT THE VERY YOUNG AGE OF 43 WOULD BE DIAGNOSED WITH A TERMINALLY ILL DISEASE THAT LED TO SOME OF THE MOST HORRIFYING TREATMENTS I HAVE EVER SEEN AND CAUSED HIM TO MISS OUT ON HIS GRAND CHILDREN GROWING UP, AND CAUSED HIM NOT TO BE ABLE TO BE THAT AWESOME FATHER MY BROTHER AND I STILL NEED, I STILL NEEDED HIM TO HELP ME CELEBRATE MY 21ST BIRTHDAY WHICH WAS ONLY 2 MONTHS AFTER HE PASSED AWAY, MY BROTHER NEEDED HIM FOR HIS HIGH SCHOOL GRADUATION WHICH WAS ONLY A MONTH AFTER HE PASSED AWAY, I NEEDED HIM TO SEE KYLEE WALK FOR THE FIRST TIME, I NEEDED HIM TO SEE MY YOUNGEST DAUGHTER BE BORN AND WATCH HIM KISS AND HUG ALL OVER HER, MY BROTHER NEEDED HIM TO SEE HIM GET MARRIED AND BE HERE TO SEE HIS SON. THERE ARE SO MANY MANY THINGS I STILL NEED MY FATHER FOR TODAY SO IF I HAD KNOWN THAT HE WOULD DIE SO YOUNG I WOULD HAVE TREASURED EVERY MOMENT WITH HIM AND WE WOLD HAVE LIVED AS IF EVERY DAY WAS OUR LAST AND I WOULD HAVE TOLD HIM EVERY DAY THAT HE WAS THE GREATEST PERSON I HAD EVER KNOWN AND I WOULD HAVE ALWAYS TOLD HIM I LOVED HIM NO MATTER WHAT THE CIRCUMSTANCE MIGHT HAVE BEEN. IF I HAD KNOWN MY BOSS OF 3 YEARS WOULD TREAT ME AS BADLY AS SHE DID WHEN MY YOUNGEST DAUGHTER KAYLOR WAS ADMITTED INTO THE HOSPITAL A FEW MONTHS AGO WITH A URINARY TRACT INFECTION LEADING TO THE STILL QUESTIONABLE DIAGNOSIS OF KIDNEY REFLUX WHICH HAS AFFECTED OUR LIVES IN MANY WAYS, INCLUDING HER HAVING TO TAKE A DAILY DOSE OF ANTIBOTICS EVERYDAY AND BE WATCHED CLOSELY BY HER PEDIATRICIAN AND WE HAVE TO BE VERY CAREFUL ABOUT THESE INFECTIONS BECAUSE SHE IS SO LITTLE AND THE KIDNEYS ARE SUCH VITAL ORGANS, SO IF I HAD KNOWN SHE WOULD ACT THE WAY SHE DID I WOULD HAVE TOLD HER ASS OFF A LONG TIME BEFORE, AND I WOULD HAVE DEFINITELY NOT CARED ABOUT MY JOB AS MUCH AS I DID AND I WOULD HAVE NOT WORRIED OVER THE DECISION TO QUIT AND IN ALL I WOULD HAVE TOLD HER IN ALL HONESTY THAT SHE WAS ONE OF THE BIGGEST BITCHES I HAVE EVER KNOWN, AND THAT EVERYONE KNOWS SHE HAS HAD A FACE LIFT, A NOSE JOB AND A BOOB OH IIF I HAD ONLY KNOWN THEN WHAT I KNOW NOW MY REGRET WOULD BE VERY MINIMAL TO WHAT IT IS TODAY.

WHERE WE LIVE FRIDAY!!! (KYLEE'S ROOM)

THIS IS KYLEE GRACE'S ROOM, I ALSO LOVE IT VERY MUCH, AND OFTEN JUST GO IN IT TO LOOK AT IT, I LOVE TO DECORATE AND HAVING MY TWO GIRLS HAS DEFINITELY GIVEN ME THAT OPPORTUNITY. KYLEE LOVE'S HERE ROOM AND ALL THE CHILDREN THAT SEE IT LOVE IT TOO. IT'S A LITTLE CASTLE FOR MY PRINCESS.