IF I HAD KNOWN

EVERYONE SHOULD TRY USING THIS PHRASE AND SEE WHAT YOU WOULD HAVE DONE DIFFERENTLY, LET ME KNOW WHAT YOU THINK!!!

TWO DAYS AGO I HEARD ON A LOCAL RADIO STATION IN (LITTLE ROCK ARKANSAS) A WOMEN TALKING ABOUT HER LIFE AND HOW IF SHE HAD KNOWN THINGS WOULD BE THE WAY THEY ARE RIGHT NOW IN HER LIFE SHE WOULD HAVE DONE ALOT DIFFERENTLY. AFTER HEARING HER SAY SOME THINGS THE PHRASE "IF I HAD KNOWN" WOULD NOT LEAVE MY HEAD, I EVEN HAVE GONE TO BED EACH NIGHT THINKING ABOUT IT. AS YOU CAN TELL IF YOU HAVE READ ANY OF MY BLOGS I HAVE HAD A REALLY ROUGH TWO YEARS BEGINNING WITH THE DEATH OF MY FATHER. SO WITH ME THINKING SO MUCH ABOUT THAT PHRASE IT INSPIRED ME TO WRITE DOWN WHAT I WOULD HAVE DOWN DIFFERENTLY, SO STARTING FROM THE VERY BEGINNING OF MY REGRET IN MY LIFE I AM GOING TO TELL YOU WHAT I WOULD HAVE CHANGED "IF I HAD KNOWN"

IF I HAD KNOWN

IF I HAD KNOWN AT THE VERY YOUNG AGE OF 18 THAT I WOULD GET DRUNK AT A SHORTY SMALLS RESTUARANT WITH A GROUP OF PEOPLE I HAD NO BUSINESS HANGING OUT WITH AND ALLOW ONE OF THOSE DRUNK PEOPLE TO DRIVE ME HOME IN MY CAR AND ON OUR WAY SIDE SWIPE A HUMMER LEADING INTO A YARD AND 10 FEET AWAY FROM A FAMILY'S DOOR AND THE CRASH ITSELF CAUSING ME 2 WEEKS OF A HOSPITAL STAY AND ACHES AND PAIN THAT WILL NEVER GO AWAY, I WOULD HAVE MADE A SMARTER DECISION AND NOT ONLY THINK FOR MYSELF BUT I WOULD HAVE THOUGHT TO CALL A CAP OR EVEN MY MOTHER TO COME GET ME AND STAY OF THE ROAD TO KEEP EVERYONE ELSE ON IT SAFE TOO. IF I HAD KNOWN THAT MY HUSBAND TODAY WOULD END UP BEING MY NIGHT AND SHINING ARMOR THE WAY THAT HE WAS AFTER MY ACCIDENT AT 18, I CAN NOT EXPLAIN ENOUGH ABOUT HOW GREAT OF A GUY HE WAS TO ME, HE CAME TO THE HOSPITAL DAILY, HE PRAYED FOR ME, HE HAD OTHERS PRAY FOR ME, HE KISSED ME EVEN WHEN SOME OF MY TEETH WERE CRACKED AND BREAKING FROM THE WRECK AND ONE OF THEM WAS COMPLETELY MISSING, HE TOLD ME I WAS BEAUTIFUL EVEN THOUGH I HAD CUTS ON MY FACE THAT WERE NOT HEALED AND WAS WALKING ON CRUTCHES WITH A LIMP FROM A BROKEN PELVIS, SO IF I HAD KNOWN HE WOULD BE THAT GREAT GUY AND I WOULD MARRY HIM I WOULD NOT HAVE DUMPED HIM BEFORE MY ACCIDENT AND I WOULD HAVE NOT IGNORED HIS PHONE CALLS AND I WOULD HAVE GIVEN HIM THE CHANCE HE DESERVED THE FIRST TIME AROUND. IF I HAD KNOWN THAT MY DAD AT THE VERY YOUNG AGE OF 43 WOULD BE DIAGNOSED WITH A TERMINALLY ILL DISEASE THAT LED TO SOME OF THE MOST HORRIFYING TREATMENTS I HAVE EVER SEEN AND CAUSED HIM TO MISS OUT ON HIS GRAND CHILDREN GROWING UP, AND CAUSED HIM NOT TO BE ABLE TO BE THAT AWESOME FATHER MY BROTHER AND I STILL NEED, I STILL NEEDED HIM TO HELP ME CELEBRATE MY 21ST BIRTHDAY WHICH WAS ONLY 2 MONTHS AFTER HE PASSED AWAY, MY BROTHER NEEDED HIM FOR HIS HIGH SCHOOL GRADUATION WHICH WAS ONLY A MONTH AFTER HE PASSED AWAY, I NEEDED HIM TO SEE KYLEE WALK FOR THE FIRST TIME, I NEEDED HIM TO SEE MY YOUNGEST DAUGHTER BE BORN AND WATCH HIM KISS AND HUG ALL OVER HER, MY BROTHER NEEDED HIM TO SEE HIM GET MARRIED AND BE HERE TO SEE HIS SON. THERE ARE SO MANY MANY THINGS I STILL NEED MY FATHER FOR TODAY SO IF I HAD KNOWN THAT HE WOULD DIE SO YOUNG I WOULD HAVE TREASURED EVERY MOMENT WITH HIM AND WE WOLD HAVE LIVED AS IF EVERY DAY WAS OUR LAST AND I WOULD HAVE TOLD HIM EVERY DAY THAT HE WAS THE GREATEST PERSON I HAD EVER KNOWN AND I WOULD HAVE ALWAYS TOLD HIM I LOVED HIM NO MATTER WHAT THE CIRCUMSTANCE MIGHT HAVE BEEN. IF I HAD KNOWN MY BOSS OF 3 YEARS WOULD TREAT ME AS BADLY AS SHE DID WHEN MY YOUNGEST DAUGHTER KAYLOR WAS ADMITTED INTO THE HOSPITAL A FEW MONTHS AGO WITH A URINARY TRACT INFECTION LEADING TO THE STILL QUESTIONABLE DIAGNOSIS OF KIDNEY REFLUX WHICH HAS AFFECTED OUR LIVES IN MANY WAYS, INCLUDING HER HAVING TO TAKE A DAILY DOSE OF ANTIBOTICS EVERYDAY AND BE WATCHED CLOSELY BY HER PEDIATRICIAN AND WE HAVE TO BE VERY CAREFUL ABOUT THESE INFECTIONS BECAUSE SHE IS SO LITTLE AND THE KIDNEYS ARE SUCH VITAL ORGANS, SO IF I HAD KNOWN SHE WOULD ACT THE WAY SHE DID I WOULD HAVE TOLD HER ASS OFF A LONG TIME BEFORE, AND I WOULD HAVE DEFINITELY NOT CARED ABOUT MY JOB AS MUCH AS I DID AND I WOULD HAVE NOT WORRIED OVER THE DECISION TO QUIT AND IN ALL I WOULD HAVE TOLD HER IN ALL HONESTY THAT SHE WAS ONE OF THE BIGGEST BITCHES I HAVE EVER KNOWN, AND THAT EVERYONE KNOWS SHE HAS HAD A FACE LIFT, A NOSE JOB AND A BOOB OH IIF I HAD ONLY KNOWN THEN WHAT I KNOW NOW MY REGRET WOULD BE VERY MINIMAL TO WHAT IT IS TODAY.