SALES SALES SALES, EVERYWHERE!!!

MY HUSBAND IS PLAYING GOLF TODAY IN A GOLF TOURNAMENT TO BENEFIT BAPTIST CHURCH'S, SO SINCE HE HAS BEEN GONE TODAY I DECIDED TO GO SHOPPING. I WENT TO OLD NAVY AND MUCH TO MY SURPRISE THEY ARE HAVING A HUGE 50% OFF SALE AND HAVE ALL OF THEIR BATHING SUITS, SHORTS, TANK TOPS, AND SOME SHIRTS FOR 5 DOLLARS AND BECAUSE THAT IS SUCH AN AWESOME DEAL I FELT LIKE I COULD DO SOME SPENDING. I BOUGHT THE GIRLS SEVERAL BATHING SUITS, MY HUSBAND A FEW PAIRS OF SWIMMING TRUNKS AND MYSELF SOME TANK TOPS AND SHIRTS. THE GIRLS AND I MET MY MOTHER AND GRANDMOTHER AT MIMI'S CAFE AND ATE A WONDERFUL LUNCH. WHEN WE WERE EATING KAYLOR BEGAN TO GET REALLY CRANKY (I AM SURE SHE IS FUSSY TODAY BECAUSE SHE GOT HER 6 MONTH SHOTS YESTERDAY) AND I DECIDED TO LEAVE. KYLEE STAYED WITH MY MOTHER AND IS ATTENDING OUR NEPHEWS BIRTHDAY PARTY WITHOUT ME. OH YEAH I BOUGHT HIM SOME REALLY CUTE OUTFITS FROM OLD NAVY TOO. I WISH I COULD HAVE WENT TO HIS PARTY AND I FEEL VERY BADLY THAT I COULD NOT BUT I KNOW BEING AT HOME RIGHT NOW LETTING KAYLOR TAKE A MUCH NEEDED NAP IS WHAT IS BEST FOR HER!!!!

WE ARE TRULY BLESSED!!!

TODAY, I RECIEVED A PHONE CALL FROM MY HUSBAND AROUND 1:00p.m. AND BEFORE ANSWERING IT I WONDERED TO MYSELF "WHY IS HE CALLING" (I HAVE COME TO REALIZE MY HUSBAND IS VERY BUSY AT WORK AND HE CAN NOT CALL ME UNLESS IT IS VERY IMPORTANT) AND WHEN I ANSWERED THE FIRST THING MY HUSBAND SAID IS "GOD IS TRULY WATCHING OVER US" AND I IMMEDIATELY RESPONDED BY SAYING "WHY DO YOU SAY THAT" AND HE SAID YOU KNOW HOW WE SPENT ALL THAT MONEY LAST NIGHT BUYING OUT OF OUR ALLTEL/VERIZON CONTRACT AND SWITCHING TO ATT&T AND PURCHASING US BOTH IPHONE'S" I SAID "YES I KNOW HOW MUCH WE SPENT" AND HE SAID" WELL MY SUPERVISOR COME OUT TO MY JOB TODAY AND HAD ME A $500.00 BONUS FOR A JOB A DID SEVERAL MONTHS BACK AND WE COULD NOT HAVE USED THIS MONEY AT A BETTER TIME AND HE SAID I KNOW GOD HAS BEEN WITH US" AND I RESPONDED BY SAYING"YES I KNOW HE IS WITH US BECAUSE WE HAVE BEGUN TO LIVE OUR LIVE'S FOR HIM AND WE OUR ON THE PATH THAT HE WANTS US TO TRAVEL ON". I AM TELLING YOU THIS STORY BECAUSE EVERY SO MANY DAYS IT HITS ME ABOUT HOW TRULY BLESSED I AM AND HOW AWESOME OUR GOD IS!!! 4 MONTHS AGO MY BABY WAS SERIOUSLY ILL, I HAD TO QUIT MY JOB AND LOSE A BIG HOUSE HOLD INCOME, MY HEALTH WAS NOT GREAT, AND MY HUSBAND WAS FACING A POSSIBLE LAY OFF, IF YOU HAD ASKED ME 4 MONTHS AGO WHERE I WOULD BE TODAY I WOULD HAVE SAID "I DON'T KNOW, BUT NOW THAT MY HUSBAND AND I HAVE DEVOTED OURSELVES AND OUR FAMILY TO GOD WE HAVE BEEN MORE BLESSED THEN EVER BEFORE. MY BABY IS HEALTHY AND HAPPY, I STAY AT HOME WITH MY GIRLS AND LOVE EVERY MINUTE OF MY TIME WITH THEM, MY HUSBAND IS MAKING MORE MONEY THEN WE MADE COMBINED OVER 4 MONTHS AGO, WE HAVE NOT STRUGGLED ARE WANTED FOR ANYTHING AND MY HUSBAND HAS MADE IT THROUGH HIS COMPANY'S LAYOFF'S. WHEN I THINK OF WHAT ALL GOD HAS DONE FOR US I BECOME SPEECHLESS AND KNOW THAT MIRACLES DO HAPPEN. ALL THINGS ARE POSSIBLE WITH OUR AMAZING GOD!!!

A DAY FULL OF THINGS TO DO!!!

Since Kylee is still and the lake with my mom and step-dad and will not be back until later tonight, Kaylor and I are going to run some much needed errands around town, we are going to go to a store in Bryant Arkansas called Giggles and Wiggles, I have been trying to go to this store for weeks and everytime I go they are closed. After that we are going to hit the dollar tree to see if they have anything we may need for the house. After the dollar tree we are going to complete our day with grocery shopping at Kroger. Oh yeah and I also have to get my medicines filled. I hope today will go alot easier then I am imagining it to go, at least I already know what to expect with a six month old. She is already fussy and is yelling at me right now, so I am making this post short and sweet.

WISH US LUCK!!!

OUR MINI VACATION TO THE LAKE!!!

This is the really cute bib I bought will Kaylor's first initial!!!These are the shoes I bought for Kaylor, they have satin lace bows on them!!!

This is the bag I bought for Kaylor for when she gets a little older, The P is for the first letter in our last name!!!

OH MY GOODNESS, I wish someone would have told me how hard it was going to be trying to take a 3 year old and a six month old to the lake!!! Me, Kylee, and Kaylor, left monday morning and went to a lake in Hot Springs Arkansas where my mother and brother were waiting for us. We planned this trip in advance and we were all excited to spend quality family time together but little did we know 3 kids and 4 adults in a camper with two of the kids being 6 months old would not be as pleasant as what we had imagined.

OH AND DON'T LET ME FORGET TO MENTION THAT I FORGOT TO TAKE ONE OF THE THREE DIGITAL CAMERA'S WE HAVE, SO I DID NOT GET ANY ADORABLE PICTURES OF THIS MINI VACATION.

The First Day was great, me and the girls played in the water for a long time and then we ate and took several naps throughout the day but when the night came all the greatness turned to disaster. My brother's baby Landon screamed in pain for what seemed like forever and every time her cried my baby Kaylor thought she had to wake up and get ready to play. My brother and his wife rushed Landon to the hospital in Hot Springs and discovered Landon had an ear infection. After getting him his medicine they came to the camp and got all there stuff and went home.

The Second day started out great as well, we made breakfast and went into town and bought some supplies we needed from the local Walmart and I shopped at the cutest boutique for kids called Doodles for children boutique (the pictures of the cute things I bought are posted above). After shopping we got some food at the local On the Border mexican restuarant and took it back to the camp site and ate. Later on in the evening my wonderful husband surprised me and the girls and showed up at the campsite (after working all day) and spent some great quality time with the girls and I. He also took me fishing on the boat for awhile. We caught two fish each and got a little sun burn. After my hubby left we started to settle for bed until I began to feel sick and really get the feeling that I was ready to come home, but unfortunately it was too late so I had to make myself sleep and wait till the morning to leave.

The Third day was very short and sweet. I ate breakfast with everyone got all my bags packed and loaded up the car, then loaded up the girls and halled tale back home to my much missed, not as stressful as the lake, wonderful house. I am very glad we went to the lake because Kylee really enjoyed herself but Kaylor is still to young to have fun at place's like the lake and I get way to stressed out to go too often.

KAYLOR GEM IS 6 MONTHS OLD!!!

I LOVE SAYING KAYLOR'S FIRST AND MIDDLE NAME TOGETHER. I THINK I LOVE DOING THIS SO MUCH BECAUSE I KNOW HER FIRST NAME IS VERY UNIQUE AND HER MIDDLE NAME IS SO SPECIAL BECAUSE SHE IS NAMED AFTER HER UMPA (MY DAD) THAT PASSED AWAY BEFORE EVER GETTING TO MEET HER. HOW BIG HIS SMILE MUST BE IN HEAVEN THOUGH, KNOWING HE HAS A GRANDCHILD NAMED AFTER HIM.

KAYLOR GEM

• KAYLOR TURNED 6 MONTHS ON JUNE 8TH 2009.


• SHE WEARS A SIZE 3-6 MONTHS AND SOME 6-9 MONTHS


• HER SHOE SIZE IS A SIZE 1 (YES HER FEET ARE SMALL).


• KAYLOR WEIGH'S APPROXIMATELY 16 POUNDS.


• SHE LOVE'S AND ALWAYS WANTS HER PACIFIER. (SHE HAS A DIFFERENT ONE FOR EVERY OUTFIT).


• HER EYES ARE STILL THE PRETTIEST BLUE (OCEAN BLUE)


• HER HAIR HAS BEGUN TO THICKEN ON TOP.


• SHE HATES LOUD, NOISY PLACES.


• SHE ROLLS OVER, AND IS TRYING TO SCOOT (A LITTLE).


• KAYLOR LOVES TO PLAY PATTI CAKE.


• KAYLOR GEM STILL SLEEPS IN HER PLAY IN PACK RIGHT BESIDE MOMMY AND DADDY'S BED (I AM NOT READY TO LET HER GO INTO HER ROOM YET).


• SHE ABSOLUTELY ADORES HER BIG SISTER KYLEE GRACE.


• KAYLOR IS A MOMMY AND DADDY'S GIRL AND WILL NOT LET ANY ONE ELSE HOLD HER (HOPE THAT CHANGES SOON).


• KAYLOR GEM IS A VERY HAPPY BABY.

JUNE 16TH 2006 WAS THE DAY MY FIRST ANGEL WAS BORN!!!

I CANNOT BELIEVE MY BEAUTIFUL, SWEET, LOVING, AND VERY OUTGOING DAUGHTER IS 3 YEARS OLD TODAY.

WOW TIME HAS FLOWN BY SO VERY FAST.

I REMEMBER THE DAYS WHEN YOU WOULD FIT IN ONE ARM, THIS IS BECAUSE YOU WERE 4 WEEKS PREMATURE AND YOUR WEIGHT WAS 5 POUNDS 11 OUNCES AND YOU WERE ONLY 18 1/2 INCHES LONG. NOW YOUR WEIGHT IS APPROXIMATELY 26 POUNDS AND YOU ARE 2 FEET 6 INCHES TALL.

I HAVE LOVED EVERY ADVENTURE YOU HAVE TAKEN ME ON IN YOUR SHORT LIFE, EVEN THOUGH SOME OF THEM HAVE BEEN VERY SCARY (ESPECIALLY THE HOSPITAL STAY AT CHILDREN'S HOSPITAL WHEN WE THOUGHT YOU HAD A SMALL SEIZURE, THANK GOD IT WAS NOT ONE AND WE FOUND OUT YOU WERE SUFFERING FROM A KIDNEY INFECTION FROM YOUR KIDNEY REFLUX) BUT ALL OF THEM WILL NEVER BE FORGOTTEN.

YOU AND YOUR SISTER ARE THE REASON I WAKE EACH MORNING AND THRIVE TO BE SUCCESSFUL IN EVERY WAY SO THE BOTH OF YOU CAN HAVE AS WONDERFUL LIVE'S AS POSSIBLE

I DO WISH THERE WAS A WAY TO HAVE YOU NEVER SUFFER FROM ANY PAIN IN YOUR LIFETIME BUT THAT IS AN IMPOSSIBLE WISH, BUT I DO WANT YOU TO KNOW THAT I (AS YOU MOTHER AND FRIEND) WILL ALWAYS BE HERE FOR YOU, EVEN WHEN IT IS THE WORST POSSIBLE THING YOU COULD EVER DO, I WILL ALWAYS LOVE YOU AND HELP YOU NO MATTER WHAT.

THERE IS NO GREATER LOVE THAN THAT OF A MOTHER AND CHILD AND KYLEE GRACE PEMBERTON YOU ARE MY GREATEST LOVE AND I WILL TRY IN EVERY WAY FOR THE REST OF MY LIFE TO SHOW YOU THAT!!!


HAPPY 3RD BIRTHDAY, MY SWEET SWEET ANGEL!!!

KYLEE GRACE'S 3RD BIRTHDAY PARTY!!!

KYLEE HAD HER BIRTHDAY PARTY ON SUNDAY JUNE 14TH AT 3:00p.m. AT JUMP ZONE IN MAUMELLE. MY HUSBAND AND I ARRIVED AN HOUR BEFORE THE PARTY STARTED AND SET THE ROOM UP. WE DECORATED KYLEE'S PARTY ROOM WITH BARBIE DECORATIONS. WE ALSO SET UP HER CAKE AND ALL THE OTHER GOODIES THAT WENT WITH IT. THE BALLOONS WE ORDERED FROM JUMP ZONE THAT WERE PINK AND PURPLE MATCHED THE THEME WONDERFULLY. KYLEE WAS SO EXCITED TO JUMP ON ALL OF THE JUMPERS. I DID ONE OF THEM WITH HER AND AFTERWARDS REALIZED I NEED TO GET BACK IN SHAPE AGAIN. KYLEE HAD SO MANY FRIENDS AND FAMILY COME TO HER SPECTACULAR 3RD BIRTHDAY PARTY. WHEN IT CAME TIME TO EAT CAKE EVERYONE WAS DEFINITELY READY TO TRY THE AWESOME BARBIE CAKE WE HAD MADE AT CAKERY AFFAIRS IN BRYANT. THE BOTTOM OF THE CAKE WAS 12" INCH ROUND AND WAS VANILLA AND GERMAN CHOCOLATE. THE BARBIE CAKE THAT WAS ON TOP OF THE 12" INCH ROUND CAKE WAS STRAWBERRY CAKE (WITH FRESH STRAWBERRIES) EVERYONE SAID THE CAKE WAS DELICIOUS. KYLEE WAS TREATED TO HER VERY OWN MINATURE CAKE THAT WAS GERMAN CHOCOLATE (HER FAVORITE) AND SHE ATE LOTS OF IT AND EVEN HAD A PIECE OF THE BIG CAKE TOO. AFTER CAKE IT WAS TIME FOR PRESENTS (I COULD NOT BELIEVE SHE GOT SO MANY) AND IT SEEMED LIKE FOREVER FOR HER TO OPEN ALL OF THEM, BUT SHE LOVED EACH PRESENT VERY MUCH AND WE ARE SO THANKFUL TO EVERYONE WHO CAME TO HER WONDERFUL 3RD BIRTHDAY PARTY. THANK YOU ALL SO VERY MUCH!!!

MY BABY KYLEE IS TURNING 3!!

It seems like it was yesterday when I was a newlywed (of only 2 months) and I was in the bathroom of my apartment with my husband standing at the door saying "what does it say?" "Are we pregnant?" and me eventually being able to say "Oh my, we are pregnant". Just weeks before finding out that we were pregnant one of my cousin's said "so are you going to be like me and get pregnant really quickly after getting married?" and kyle and I responded by saying "NO we are definitely going to wait a few years and then have children" but little did we know our precious baby Kylee had already been concieved. From the very moment I knew I was pregnant, MY LIFE CHANGED FOREVER. I began to eat all the right things, sleep all the right ways, drink all the nurturing drinks and truly become a mature women. I remember crying because none of my jeans fit and because I thought my husband thought I was fat and unattractive. My mom even rushed me to a maternity store and bought me knew pants and told me I would be able to fit into my old one's soon after having the baby (that was definitely a lie). Kylee Grace Pemberton (ONE OF THE TWO GREATEST LOVE'S OF MY LIFE) was born on JUNE 16TH, 2006. SHE WAS TRULY HER DADDY'S FATHER'S DAY PRESENT THAT YEAR. She came by c-section at 11:51p.m. and I remember the doctor saying he had never seen so many family members in a waiting room before. What can I say, everyone was anticipating her arrival. She has truly been my SWEET ANGEL from the very beginning and because her birthday party is this weekend I would like to share with you a letter I wrote to Kylee for her 3rd birthday.

KYLEE GRACE

I HAVE BEEN SO FORTUNATE TO HAVE BEEN BLESSED WITH SUCH A LOVING, CARING, BEAUTIFUL AND VERY STRONG WILLED DAUGHTER. KNOWING THAT YOU ONCE GREW IN MY TUMMY AND MATURED IN IT FOR 9 MONTHS IS THE MOST AMAZING MEMORIES AS A MOTHER THAT I COULD EVER HAVE. MY LIFE BEGAN TO HAVE A PURPOSE THE DAY I FIRST HELD YOU IN MY ARMS. FROM THAT VERY MOMENT ON I KNEW I WAS MEANT TO BE YOUR MOTHER AND I WANTED NOTHING MORE THAN TO HOLD AND LOVE YOU FOR THE REST OF MY LIFE. THROUGHOUT THESE LAST 3 YEARS WE HAVE SHARED A WONDERFUL BOND AS MOTHER AND DAUGHTER, IT HAS BEEN ONE THAT I COULD HAVE NEVER IMAGINED. I LOVE YOUR LAUGHTER, YOUR SMILE, YOUR BEAUTIFUL LONG CURLY LOCKS OF HAIR, YOUR BIG GREEN EYES, YOUR PRETTY TEETH, YOUR TALKING HABITS AND YOUR OUT GOING WITTY PERSONALITY. I ALSO LOVE TO HEAR PEOPLE SAY YOU LOOK JUST LIKE ME WHEN I WAS LITTLE. I LOVE BEING YOUR MOMMY AND GETTING TO HAVE THESE PRECIOUS MEMORIES OF YOUR LIFE AS YOU GROW UP. I CANNOT BELIEVE THAT YOU ARE TURNING 3, EVEN THOUGH YOU ACT LIKE YOUR 18 ALREADY. I HAVE NEVER SEEN ANOTHER 3 YEAR OLD WITH AS MANY PURSES AS YOU HAVE AND I HAVE NEVER SEEN ONE THAT CAN WALK IN HIGH HEELS AS WELL AS YOU DO. I JUST WANT YOU TO KNOW THAT I LOVE BEING YOUR MOTHER, AND I LIVE TO GIVE YOU A WONDERFUL LIFE AND FUFILL IT WITH ENDLESS POSSIBILITIES. THERE IS NOTHING I WOULD NOT DO FOR YOU AND MY LOVE FOR YOU IS THE GREATEST IMAGINABLE.

I LOVE YOU (AS YOU AND I ALWAYS SAY) TO THE MOON AND BACK, FOREVER & EVER.

TODAY IS MY BIRTHDAY!!!

I am 23 today, and this has been a very amazing birthday. My day started off with my husband wishing me a happy birthday before he went to work and telling me how much he loves me. Later in the day I got dressed up (I put a pair of my new jeans on, straightened my hair, did my make-up and put the girls in matching outfits that were too cute) and we went to my mother's. When we got there she surprised me with beautiful cards and cupcakes. She even gave me some money to buy myself something nice(I pot a new pair of seven jeans from indigo with it)and took me and the girls to lunch at chips barbeque. Later in the afternoon when kyle got off work he surprised me with a beautiful card and took me to get pedicure(which felt so good)and of course I got Kylee's toes and fingernails painted too for her birthday that is next week. Kyle also took me to eat at El Chico mexican restuarant(I love mexican food)and we enjoyed a really great dinner. El Chico was one of my dad's favorite restuarants and since he isn't here to share my birthday with me, I decided to eat at a place that reminded me of the wonderful times I had with him. To top my birthday off Kylee sang to me the most beautiful version (created by her) of happy birthday tht I have ever heard. This day was the best, and I cannot thank my family enough for their love and caring efforts to make my birthday as wonderful as it has been. 23 has started off being amazing, I hope that the rest of my year continue's to go this way!!! HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME!!!

OUR WEEKEND!!!

My husband and I got to spend a little time together friday night, we only had our six month old Kaylor because our 3 year old Kylee was at the Beebe races watching her pawpaw try to win, unfortunately he did not win, he got 2nd place instead. Kylee loves to watch her pawpaw race and love's him so very much. I am very fortunate to have such a wonderful step-dad that treats my children as his own grandchildren. I worried when my dad passed away that my kids would miss out on a pawpaw but my step-dad has pushed all those worries aside and has been a wonderful grandparent to my children. Now back to the weekend, Friday night was great me, kyle and kaylor ate at Chili's and then went and looked at some tahoe's (still hoping I get one for my birthday) and then we came back to the house and enjoyed a quit evening. Saturday morning we got up and picked Kylee up from her grandparents and then recieved a phone call from Kyle's mother that she was was bringing our niece (JoJo) to stay the night. Once JoJo arrived we went to Chucke Cheese and ate and played a while, then we came home and watched movies and the girls destroyed my house from the front to the very back. I made them maraconi and hot dogs for supper and they played for what seemed like forever in Kylee's room and then they finally went to bed. Today we got up extremely early and the girls began to play and I gave them a bath and got everyone ready for church. We went to church and really enjoyed the service and now we are back at home. I really feel like I could pull my hair out because JoJo and Kylee together are into everything and the don't ever stop. Hope everyone else's weekend went well and that everyone was able to squeeze in some family time because in the end that is what is most important!!!

BIRTHDAY COUNT DOWN!!

I am so excited that my birthday is approaching so quickly this year, the only down side to it is my father will not be here to call me really early in the morning and sing me Happy Birthday the way that he always did. My Birthday is 3 days away and Kylee's birthday party is only 8 days aways. I told my husband that i want a cookie cake to eat for my Birthday since we are going to have such a big cake for Kylee's just a few days later. I also told him that I want a new car for my Birthday, I don't know for sure if that will be possible but we have gone looking at some SUV's and so far I found a black tahoe that I like alot. But regardless of what I get I will be happy to share another birthday with my family as a proud wife and mother.

JUNE BIRTHDAYS!!!!!!!

AS YOU KNOW IF YOU HAVE READ MY BLOGS HERE LATELY MY DAUGHTER KYLEE'S THIRD BIRTHDAY IS A LITTLE OVER TWO WEEKS AWAY AND I AM GETTING SO EXCITED AND OVERWHELMED AT THE SAME TIME, BUT WHAT I MAY HAVE FORGOTTEN TO MENTION IS THAT MY BIRTHDAY IS NEXT TUESDAY, ON JUNE 9TH I WILL BE 23 YEARS OLD. I KNOW, IT MAY SEEM STRANGE THAT I HAVE BEEN TALKING ABOUT MY DAUGHTERS BIRTHDAY FOR MONTHS AND HAVE NOT SAID ANYTHING ABOUT MINE BUT WHEN I HAD KYLEE I KNEW THAT IT WASN'T ABOUT ME ANYMORE (DON'T GET ME WRONG I SILL EXPECT A GIFT FROM MY HUSBAND AND A LITTLE BIT OF BIRTHDAY WISHES) IT HAS BECOME ALL ABOUT KYLEE AND OUR NEW BABY KAYLOR. CHILDREN NEVER FORGET THEIR BIRTHDAYS AND IF THEY ARE TOO YOUNG TO REMEMBER THEN YOU REMIND THEM, I WANT MY GIRLS TO KNOW THAT I TRIED HARD TO GIVE THEM THE BEST OF EVERYTHING INCLUDING LOVING THEM THE MOST EVERDAY. SO BACK TO KYLEE'S BIRTHDAY. THE INVATIONS ARE OUT, THE CAKE IS COMPLETELY PAID FOR THE PARTY IS COMPLETELY PAID FOR AND THE DECORATIONS ARE FINISHED NOW ALL I HAVE LEFT IS HER GIFT. MY HUSBAND AND I TOOK KYLEE TOYSRUS LAST NIGHT TO LOOK AT SOME THINGS WITH HER AND GO FIGURE MY DAUGHTER PICKS OUT THE NEW BARBIE ESHALADE (SHE MEANS ESCALADE) WHICH HAPPENS TO BE $379.00. SHE SAYS THE NAME SO CUTE THAT IT MAKES YOU WANT TO BUY IT FOR HER BUT THEN I THINK WOW THAT IS REALLY EXPENSIVE ESPECIALLY FOR A BIRTHDAY PRESENT, I DON'T EVER REMEMBER GETTING GIFTS LIKE THAT. I DON'T KNOW WHAT WE ARE GOING TO GET HER, ONLY TIME WILL TELL, STAY TUNED AND YOU WILL FIND OUT SOON IF WE GET THE ESHALADE OR NOT.......